drifting away from friends

i've seen many of my friends who have gotten married and started drifting off the map. i didn't think that i'd be one of those, but, sadly, i realize that i am. i've realized that it's takes a lot of effort and initiative for me to not drift away from my previous non-married life. i'm beginning to think about why this is more. i think that when i was single, when i wanted to be with someone, i'd just go out with my friends--whether one or a group. i also realized that i stayed up later than i do now, and had a little bit less responsibility. now, i'm always around someone (well not always, but a lot of the time, especially in my free time). when i come home, i just feel like there's always something to do around the house (and given the state of our house, there is a lot to do). by the time i do some chores, cook dinner, i'm at a state of being too lazy to do anything else but stay at home. so i guess it's a combination of not realizing that i really miss hanging out with others and being lazy. so, i really want to correct that. i'm hoping that i can start tonight by going to gradIV and hanging out with people i haven't seen in a long time.

oh, another thing that i've realized is the fact that when nat gets busy and doesn't seem to have time for things, i kinda follow suit. i don't go out, don't invite too many friends over, and basically don't socialize. it's funny. i guess i'm going to have to work myself out of that.

switching topics. i'm having an extremely hard time motivating myself to finish this thesis that i'm currently working on. i love my new program (human factors), but i'm not really digging the project that i'm doing. i'm basically looking at tools for network security engineers, which is too computer-sciencey to me (i had hoped to avoid something technical like this for my second masters topic since i did my first masters in CS). why am i doing it then? well, it's what my job is for my assistantship, and so i might as well kill two birds with one stone. everytime i'm in the office, i just keep looking at the time to count down when i can go home. maybe this is a good way to make a note of what kind of job i do not want. anyways, i'm trying to break down the things i need to do piece by piece and try to get small things done so i can make some progress.