i'm a big girl... at least that's what i tell myself... :)

nat made it safe and sound into barcelona. he's now at the conference, doing what, i'm not sure. but anyways. i think these 3 days and 3 nights are a preview of germany this summer. woo hoo, previews!

well, i did not fare to well on sunday when he left. he left at 11 AM to go off to chicago, and i went to church. after church, i was thinking "what do i do with myself now"? the funny thing is, i did all the same things i would have normally done -- socialize, go home, eat lunch, etc. -- but nat wasn't there and that really threw me off. i did watch a couple hours of tv to occupy my time and not think about how nat wasn't there. then after dinner, i decided that i wasn't going to veg out the whole night just to not think about how nat wasn't there. when that happened, i got anxious--anxious about being alone, anxious about what to do. it was weird b/c most of the time i was thinking, "what's wrong with you ramona? you've been alone before, what are you so freaked out?" i literally jumped when i heard the breeze blow on the blinds, and i freaked out looking into the dark outside thinking, "people know i'm by myself, and they're coming to get me". fear not, i did not become a complete nut. God really helped me to do productive things, e-mailing friends i hadn't e-mailed in a while, and spend time reading the Bible and praying. that helped out immensely. i was surprisingly able to fall asleep really quickly, only woken up by nat's call telling me he made it to amsterdam.

but last night was good. i got a little bit scared of being alone in the house again, but i was able to fall asleep quickly before i let my mind go nuts. :) all is well. ramona is not psycho. yet. :)

thanks for all of you that wished me a happy birthday, and tanya and nat for planning a wonderful brunch and skating. :)