Always Only For My King

Take my voice and let me sing always, only for my King. Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from Thee. Take my silver and my gold not a mite would I withhold. Take my intellect and use every power as You choose. Here am I, all of me. Take my life, it's all for Thee.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

wallet size me

when nat left for his trip last week, i gave him some wallet-sized photos of me and sean to remind him of home. i also thought it would be nice to have these pictures to show his friends the latest picture of our son. well, apparently, nat had tough time understanding what wallet-sized photos are for. :P he didn't want to ruin them, so he kept them nice and safe in his back-pack. after i teased him a couple of times*, he finally put them in his wallet. :)

* nat had told me a few times that his friends wished that sean and i went, in which i replied, "did you at least show them sean's picture?" to which nat replied, "no, they weren't with me, they were in the car." to which i replied, "why aren't the in your wallet?"

dinner dates

today, i had crystal and mariko over for dinner. crystal asked me, "do you have someone over for dinner every day?" i did have someone over every day from sunday to wednesday, but that was just to keep me company while nat was in california for a conference.

we do like to try to invite someone over for dinner at least once every two weeks. i like cooking and having people over, and it's a nice change to just being home with our family every night. lydia reminded me earlier this week that it's also a good opportunity to have our friends meet each other. the idea is to invite someone you know and someone you don't know as well to dinner so that everyone can get to know each other better*. if you'd like to come over for dinner sometime, let me know! :)

* our pastor at church had made this suggestion months ago, and it was good for lydia to remind me. :)

Friday, February 22, 2008

good samaritan

i am just in awe of my neighbor james. this afternoon, he cleared the snow for 2 of our neighbor's driveway without being asked. i was so amazed when i saw the love he displayed for his neighbors. i could not help but praise God for james and his wife jodie.

Monday, February 11, 2008

occupation: stay at home mom

when nat and i got married, we decided that one of us should stay at home with the kids if at all possible. with nat getting his phd in computer science, we both agreed that it seemed best for me to stay at home. i don't think there is anything else i'd rather do right now than to stay at home and be with sean. i love being able to see how he grows and changes each and every day. i love seeing his smiles and how he lights up when he sees me. i love the being near him and holding him.

with that being said, there are still days where i wish i wasn't home all day with sean. i feel like i'm on a constant roller coaster of ups and downs emotionally. one minute i am bursting with love and joy, another minute i'm stressed out about my parenting. it's when i'm stressed that i wish i weren't staying at home. it's not that i want to go work, but i just want to get away.

i know that i need to give myself grace. thankfully, as i'm learning to give myself some grace, nat is right there telling me what a good job i'm doing. :)

Thursday, February 07, 2008

go ahead, hit me

ugh, i had a long hard day today. i feel like sean has been fighting me all day. not very many smiles today, mostly whining and crying. my patience was razor thin when nat got home. i told him about my rough day, and this was his response:

nat: you need to release some tension.
nat flexes his bicep, and turns his side toward me.
nat: hit me.
he points at the side of his upper arm that's flexed.
nat: right here. come on. do it. show me what you've got.
i begin wailing on his arm and stop when nat's arm got sore.
nat: don't you wish you were a guy so in high school you could do stuff like that [me punching his arm]?

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

sick and not sleeping

i've been feeling pretty miserable since saturday night with an awful cold. my throat has felt so sore and swollen, i've been congested, and i've had a nasty cough. it was so bad, that i just stayed at home on sunday morning instead of going to church. i was sad to miss church. :( today, i am feeling better, and i hope that this will continue.

the past two nights, i've been having problems falling asleep. and this time, i truly don't have any anxiety or nervousness going on. i don't know if it's b/c i took a nap so late in the day, my coughing, the thunderstorm last night, being sick, or knowing that sean will wake up sometime soon. i'm hoping that it has mostly to do with my late naps and my sickness.