colds in summer

i woke up with a scratchy throat this morning. i felt icky as soon as i woke up (and it didn't help that sean was up right before 6AM). i hate being sick when the weather is so nice!

diabetes

i'm taking my gestational diabetes test tomorrow. i'm dreading the result because i think i'm going to fail the test and have gestational diabetes. bleh. i wasn't thrilled to have my diet carb-limited last time, and i'm definitely not looking forward to it again (if i have to do it). i will say, being on the diet the last 10 weeks of my pregnancy did curb the amount of weight i gained. but, i'd rather take more weight gain than feeling hungry all the time. :P either way, the Lord is in control, and the baby is doing well so far. :) i can praise God for that!

end of a short spring

well, we've come to the end of a short and cool spring. last weekend (graduation weekend) it was 60s. now, we've jumped into 80s. where were the 70s? :sigh:

control

if you like being in control, don't have children. if you want God to grow and stretch you in ways that you can't possibly imagine, have children.

the past few days, i've almost had a spiritual and emotional meltdown. why? because sean has decided not to take naps from thursday - sunday (with the exception of saturday). i know, it seems trivial, and God hinted at that to me when our friends went into labor at 30 weeks with twins (the twins are tiny but doing fine). i wondered why it bothered me so much, and yesterday at small group, i realized it's because i like predictability, i like control, i like routine. and like sandy told me last night, God has blessed me immeasurably with these things with sean for a long time (sandy was surprised it was so long). however, in a span of 4 days, i felt completely out of control. i wondered if i was doing something wrong. i wondered if i even knew sean at all if i couldn't get him to nap. and God really broke me using such a simple thing. as nat prayed for my heart last night as we fell asleep, i wept. i didn't like being anxious and fretting over something so minor. i wanted to be ok with change and unpredictability, but i couldn't let it just roll off my back.

i feel that God is teaching me the same lesson as He did when i first struggled with sean's sleep habits as a newborn -- let go of control; people are unique and change and that's ok. i am still struggling with this idea (i woke up anxious and nervous this morning), but i am seeking the Lord to help me through this time. He has been gracious to me today and sean is down for a nap, but even if he didn't take one, i have been praying that i would be ok with this new sean and not let it get to me so much.

hard time sleeping

there was a thunderstorm last night, and the winds, rain, and thunder kept waking me up. i told nat this this morning, to which he replied, "there was a thunderstorm? i must have slept through it!". if only i could be that lucky!

i tried to kill myself and nat today... :P

ok, not really, but i did end up doing somethings that could have or did cause serious harm. :P

a friend wanted to borrow our fertilizer/seed spreader, so i needed to move the car. i figured, i'd just put the car in neutral and push it out. i underestimated how much i needed to push it and how fast it would be going at the end. needless to say, i managed to run (as best as i can in my current condition) and press down on the brakes before the car ended up in the middle of the street. the neighbor across the street was out working on her garden so i hope i didn't look like an idiot. :P

tonight at dinner, nat asked me to hand him the steak knife. well, i handed it to him knife pointing at him and managed to jab him in the finger. well, basically stabbed. nat jumped up and was in a lot of pain. he said something to the effect, "you never hand over a knife blade first! this is basic stuff you learn at boy scouts". nat forgave me, and i have learned my lesson. blade facing towards me when handing a knife off.

funny quotes from party

nat threw me a belated birthday/mother's day party last night. i have two quotes that i thought were pretty funny.

mrs. b (to her husband mr. b): "she's not your wife!" (in reference to mr. b taking chips off of mrs. s's plate)

nat: "sam and i found God! no one else did. rachel found beer though" (they were playing boggle. ironically, everyone at the party was Christian. :P)

garden

well, it finally stopped raining on friday night, and i was antsy to get my garden planted. since we didn't have small group last night, i thought that it would be the perfect time to till (with a shovel) and plant the garden. :) i was a little worried when i started tilling that it would be too damp, but it wasn't. i tilled the garden while nat did other gardening projects out in the front; sean decided to stay in the backyard and help me. he did quite well just walking across the garden and playing with the dirt.

after i tilled the garden, nat came back and helped me mix in some sand and break up some of the larger clumps. he took sean so that i could plant my seeds without worrying about what sean might do to the garden. after and a half, i finished tilling and planting my garden! i have basil, lettuce, cilantro, green onions, bush beans, beets, arugula, and lettuce planted. hopefully they'll do well this year! :)

on a related note, i was cautious not to work too hard in the garden and overexert myself. the work wasn't too bad, and i actually had quite a lot of energy to do chores after dinner! i think it was being outside in the fresh air and the satisfaction of having my garden done. unfortunately, i did get a light sprain in my ankle (i think from the tilling), and my forearms and lower back are sore. but, it's not too bad, so i'd say it was worth it!